the sickness of malevolent

People who does not know something

they are ease for them to appoint that person

without investigate

without enquire

without analysis

without scrutiny

blaming, blaming and blaming

until they will feel satisfied

what they said

until they feel they have put their effort very well in dinihim : دينهم

but , it just only nonsense ,

they talked and said without think

without have proper reading

Oh , Allah ! I need a strong that you may provide for me and put it in my heart.so , I may strength and have a powerful strength. I know they do something  that wrong and against in Islam, but they don't see much on it. because our belief and culture covered their eyes and they could not see the truth clear and visible. They thought , they have done very very well in Islam, but not all the matters they done is true. Come on ya akhawat ! we should have a revolution on it,especially in Islam don't just do and follow sth that syubhat. It may waste your time. You have another task that more important rather than it.

~~feeling from my heart~~

they laughed

• they laughed

• they doesn't know

• they seems like they know well about it

• HAHAHA

• yeah ! just laughed . and laughed 

• next , you may cry

• you will realized 

• currently , you all in bewilderment

• you are too penniless

• you are not subtle  and nonverbal about the truth ~~

• they took the stance

• blaming us !!

• BECAUSE they does not know .

• so they laughed

• uhh ..

• the truth is salient

• who aside the truth once 

• they  go astray the truth

seriously !!

Currently, I am missing my teachers at secondary school ,  :) I dont know why , I feel something I need have some talk with them , sharing something about my studying here ,because , they have much sacrifice for me , in order to demand what I want. and now I got what I want..Praise to Allah :)

I have made a phone called to my best teachers but just a few of them only. First called , I talked with my classroom teacher. She quite surprised with me , maybe we have been loss contact before this and I emerge and appear in her life without her conscious. Sorry teacher . I doesnt mean , I  forgot you already , but no times and spaces for me to ask you and have a long talk with you .Even I visited school last day , I met all the teachers whereupon, but  it  only took a few minutes to have a chatter.

Teachers ,

 You always give me  such essence of spirit and passion to me . You know me better  well , because you have been teached me almost 5 years. You know me, where is my weaknesses in my studying. You know me when I  feel so down whenever ,I could not put myself at the high level. and I always have a sickness in my heart ( extremely jealousy) for those who are more higher than me.AND you are the first being a supporter to me, your words fully with quotes.You give me sufficient supplication in academic for me.You refuge and spellbound to me well. HUHH ! your kindness is too much , teachers ,  :] and unable for me to describe here. Thanks teachers :) teachers like a candle that burn themselves in order to educate and enlighten the people to be a humanity/ mankind :)

but Nowadays , students more likely to blame a teachers because of their punishment. Some of students , could not realized that , what the wisdom beyond the punishment. Teachers , wants their students being a mankind , that have a first mentality of thinking , may give contribution to themselves in store.But , they never give  a chance to themselves to think about it.still blaming and set aside the teachers.Ultimately , these students will make themselves to be a   useless person, make a nuisance and stumble in our society. so , you can see that the effects or consequences , whats gonna be .

I hope students will more realized about sacrification of teachers in teaching them :)who are we ,without a teacher :)

May Allah bless them :)

reflection

Thanks friend ! love you :)

Whenever I remembered our memories, my heart felt harmony so much :) I don't know why ? why it emerge in myself. I knew , we have a lot of memories that we created together in secondary school. Even , you came here in form two , I felt so great and got pleasant impression from you, First met with you , I wonder you are not talkative person,you just silent your mouth within one week, maybe , you still shamed with us or trying yourself to fix in this school. But, day by day , yeahhh ! you became more friendlier with us , shared something interest with us. But in form two , you not in the same class with me . and we are  not too close.

on the next year , 2007 in form 3 , we sat together in the same class :) 3 BUKHARI.we always gather in group discussion , and presentation group .So at that time , we become more closer and closer to each other. :)

and in form 4 and 5 , we took different flow in our studying, you are in Accounting and me in science extreme :) But we still close, because, we stayed in a same room . I never disengage our relationship from fragile or ruin , I hold this with strong holder. I love our relationship , Never met a person who too understand me very well.


I hope so , even we are studying in  different university but our besties moment never release in my mind
lurve yuu :]

you should know !

Even I am a talkative person , never ends the story what I am talking about. Even I am cheerful person, always laugh, and seems my life is happy, never show off to you that my heart is hurting.Even , I have a lot of ideas, in order to contribute something, I ease being a tolerant person, more simply  I  be a  unforgiving person.

But all the matters is it , I have a feeling , I never demand your respect to me . but please do something that I feel comfortable. I understand who are you , but you ? Are you know my feeling much ? you may answer no , because you never care about it. RIGHT ?? You should realized about it.

human is not perfect , but, we desire to be so . so we must put off all the good things inside our heart [ tolerantion , trusthworthy, loyalty ,and what so ever is good] ,Thus , you may get waht you want to be :) but please remember the qoutes : HABLU MINNALLAH WA HABLU MINANNAS